New Start

        It has been years since I wrote my last Blog post. Sometimes life can change in a day, thus in a couple years we can all imagine the changes. I want to start by telling you why it has been years since my last post. Life does take over and we are all busy in this day, however if I stem deep, its probably just because I did not have the need, or that I just needed a break to be with the family I have. In some ways that also describes why I am writing a post now, there's a need in me and with all the time that has passed, we have made new friends who I would love to share these posts with as well. My primary goal writing the Alesia's Magnolias Blog was for my present children to learn about the sister they lost, to give a voice for child bereavement and to help me grieve. I believe most of those goals are met. Now on to our lives in 2014!!!!

          We have gone through many changes as we have a new addition to the family, our precious son Gaby. He is now 2 years of age and he is just pure joy. My husband Bill is now a Laval City Counselor a job he takes great pride in and loves. Our daughter Maro has grown up to be very empathetic and a true Alesia's Magnolias advocate. our dear Katerina is now in her last year of daycare and has an abundance of spunk. I am in the process of volunteering for the Montreal Children's hospital, on my younger children's daycare parent committee as well as The Home and School Association at Maro's school. I am trying to be there for my family as much as possible. Obviously not to forget we as a family and with the help of all of you run Alesia's Magnolias for The Alesia Fund.

        It has been over 4 years since we lost our beloved Alesia. There still has not been a day without her in our thoughts. I speak to her all the time, poor kid must be screaming,''Enough Ma''. I miss her oh so much!!! I wish so much to see how beautiful she would have been now at 6! To say time heals is somewhat true as, I don't cry everyday, I live! However I'm drenched in tears now, and do so out of random times of grief taking over. Yes we still grieve and I think we will forever.

       If I can say something to Alesia, it would be , "Thank You". You are the reason we have so much purpose in life and we want to help others and make a healthy life for ourselves. Without Alesia's passing my son would not be here and everyday that I think that I cringe, how can a parent choose between their children, just can't. 

      My husband and I after all that has happened feel truly blessed and lucky to have the family we do, to still be deeply in love with each other and that the family we have is HEALTHY! That is success!!

     

This will defiantly not be the last post for another couple years, more is yet to come!!